A big sister role

Hola! This afternoon I had lunch with my friend. All in sudden I talked about why I like to teach and help people in studying. I have no burden to do that and yeah maybe I just want to help them with my capability in knowledge..

I told her, It might be my role in the house as a big sister I used to help my brother and sister in studying. Suddenly I missed that memories. When I was child, my brother is my best friend in the house and my enemy as well.. I used to help him to borrow his friend's notes or homework, went to his friend's house at night, and wrote in rush. I complained and scolded him how I felt embarrassed because of his laziness..

Then I realized he was just a small kid who might not know what is "study" meaning, very playful, had no worries about grade, and doesn't like to study. and yeah how many people like studying?.. I wish I can be like him never worried about studying!

But then as time went by, my bro has changed and more responsible with his study. He is still lay back one but no worries he knows what he has to do..

A big sister usually has a leadership personality, able to guide and control their bros and sis, take care them, listen and give comment to them. However, in the reality not all big sister has this kind of capability. Many of them like me and my friends who are a big sister always been bullied by our siblings. I can't find the reason maybe our character is not strong and fierce enough..we become the weakest and being burden with the responsibilities to be the best and as a model for our brothers and sisters. The eldest somehow acts as experiment, if we are failed to do well then it the brothers and sisters won't ever do the same, all we get is shame and regret. But if you are the real big sister with a strong character, you can make your siblings unite and care each other. All the best for big sister~ <3

I got lost in Kuala Lumpur

I would start with my first "lost"experience in Kuala Lumpur. That time I was a new student here. The class was over and it was raining. So, my friend and me (both of us are Indonesian) asked a favor from our friend from Korea to drive us back. We were so happy because we thought we could come back to our home soon. We thought he knew the way to go from our college to my place because it is not far , only about 10 mins.

But then, who knows my Korean friend took a wrong way.. just to tell u guys, here in Malaysia only has one way and it mostly Highway road! It is very difficult to find U-turn..

We are three foreigner students lost in highway, my friend kept straight and straight couldn't find the U-turn. We ended up in unfamiliar place, very quite, and far from town. I even couldn't see any buildings or houses. All around were trees and hills. It was raining, cold, and I became hungry! My Korean friend was very very calm. "All roads in Malaysia will always end up to KL, even though we turn or keep straight!" haha It was so funny...however, we still a little bit frightened.

We asked so many people on the road, fortunately my friend and me can speak Indonesian because we only met Malaysian people there. We spent 1 hour to get back. Finally...

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My second experience was yesterday. This experience was still fresh in my memory. It was at night and the same thing it happened because my friend missed the U-turn! and three of us are foreign students too, two from China and me.. First hour, I felt confidence because I have had the experience... and I have been 2 years here so I thought I should have been familiar with some familiar places and knew how to go back..

oh and Oh,,,,, I was wrong. It was terrible than I thought. We almost got to our place, from the signboard it was shown 500 M but then we confused which way we should take. Subsequently, we took the wrong way, couldn't find U-turn, and we took the wrong turn so many times! we passed familiar places and went to unfamiliar places whereas I didn't know where! After 1 hour, I became desperate coz we couldn't find the way back and we were getting far from town...

We asked 3 people in this journey~

first was a Malay man who were standing near the bridge. My friend told me: ask him maybe he wanted to take suicide there! so funny ah,,,

this man has hearing and speech problem. when I asked he kept shouting "ha? ha? " leaned his ear like a small microphone. I didn't understand at all! In summary, we asked the wrong person....

Second person, surprisingly, he studies at same college with us and speaks in Chinese to explain. He said that our place is far and hardly to explain. It was only stick in my short-term memory and then what I had remembered we should take few left turn! Ok then , my friend just kept left and left, big turn and we ended up another place, housing area.

This is the final , I was so desperate and asked Security guards there. They are all Malaysian. So, I spoke in Indonesia again. Lucky, one of them knows well the shortcut. I explained about three times, turn right till up there, see three junction turn left, and you will see traffic light then turn right and ...Ok ok .. I asked him to draw a map. I might confused and forgot what he said! This time, I told myself this the last chance we should go to the right way! Fortunately, my hope became true! We found again Mid Valley Mall (very familiar place) took the right turn and started from there we could go back.

Lesson #1: Never take the wrong way in Kuala Lumpur, It is very hard to find U-turn here. U keep straight then u will end up somewhere!

Lesson #2: Never ask a wrong person

Lesson #3: Always bring drinking water , so thirsty man!

Lesson #4: Stay calm and focus, don't get panicked..

Lesson #5: If you still lost for more than 2 hours,, there are two ways to get back (as my friend said)

- Call taxi and follow him with your car

- Call Police to send you back!

last but not least I would say HAHAHA..fun!

Don't read my face..

Dang! I learned psychology and I fall in love with people's behavior. However, I can resist in how good someone can read my face and emotions. It was surprised me..

And yes, I am like a white paper. A white paper that plain and simple. I will always show what I feel at the moment, a blatant and a straightforward person. Say it first then think. Somehow I feel so stupid because of my words..

And some people are good in manipulating their emotions. I'm not an expert in this. But I wonder why some people choose to hide their emotions? maybe they feel shy to reveal their weakness, or pride matters? Nobody wants look weak and pitiful. how long they can keep a poker face?

Maybe I'm just too sensitive?

Money and Love

It's almost the end of my Master degree journey. I asked myself what should I do next? Where I want to go? What I want? Simple questions but it seems very hard to answer.

Some friends asked me: "Why don't you pursue PHD?" ..

>_<>

It is so a BIG thing. I would like to ask my brain first, "can you cope to study PHD?" ...ok it is not thinking but feeling. Maybe my brain can cope but pursuing PHD is something I never want to achieve. It is enough for me studying from kindergarten till now..

So I replied to one of my friends: "Now, I want to find money and love..

" It's sure I still want to learn so many things but more soft skills..

however, who knows what will happen next?

???

Welcoming July..

~The days are long but the years are short~

July! Time flies too fast ? yeah! It feels like few days ago of January.. and now I am at the middle of 2010.Is it just me or you all feel the same? so, what's next ? Time flies and I always feel compete with time. Each day seems boring and same and suddenly it would be no longer September, Oct, Nov, and Dec. We meet same person, go to the same place, do the same things, but remember this time would never return back. One day we might not meet this person again, won't go to that place again and we will miss our past activities we have been through. As same as how I miss my primary school life, secondary school life, high school and college life.

I feel grateful for coming and studying here, it is gonna be 2 years in August. Many thanks for my parents for their support, new friends that I have never thought I would have, all moments we spent and it is sad to think that one day we might apart.

Hopefully, I will see signs that lead me to something in my life. Hehe..yeah I believe in signs, it was like clues in your daily life. It was happened before I decided to studying overseas and I never think to go to Malaysia. However, no regret for this experience.

We have many choices in our life, we can decide what we want but we will never know what will happen in our life, just believe with positive thinking there is always a beautiful thing in our life journey.

The End of May

Here you go, it might be my last post for this end of month since the latest update was last month?

Today as usual, my morning ritual Open Facebook! haha...n I opened the Tarot things for fun. I wrote a question and the answer was really not answering but I like the result. Here one of them:

Strength
Strength and fortitude. From energy follows thought and action. Power that is respected. Quiet control of oneself and others. Need to bring strength from deep within and continue on in face of adversity. Strength of mind as well as body is needed. Difficult tasks ahead. Focus on all goals at once. Control of all resources at one's disposal. Ability to do what is needed when time is right. Knowing oneself and one's gifts as well as one's weaknesses.

yah..I got some clue about strength. This term always goes around my day recently. "Strength and weaknesses" and those tarot result seems a summary of all I have learned from the book! And It is not for me only, but for you all readers here.

How far we have known ourselves? It is easy to say but hard in practice indeed. We are always not sure about ourselves. We know we have changed from one point to another point but we just never realized.

Knowing oneself. Personally, I know myself but somehow I do denial or make it as an excuse of my behavior. However, now I tend to accept it, no more denial but still I use it as excuse..hehe..

I'm the one with high introvert- shy, quiet, reserved, hardly to get know and to blend with people that I am not close with. But I found my strength here. I might not be sociable as extrovert people but I am not picky in making friends. I seek people who are compatible and comfortable with. It makes sense! I found my strength here. I might have few friend but it always deep relationship. Sharing and listening is part of it and from there I learned a lot about people's life and attitude.

Facts believer. Yes again...I believe in action not words. I must see then I will believe. that's why I am not easy in trusting people's story and again I will ask details for it. I think this is one's principle. It is nothing to do with characteristic or personality that you have.

so, have you started knowing yourselves? All bunches of personality tests, zodiac tests only a facilitator. You can say" it is similar like me", "oh yeah..it's true" but Who knows you best is always YOURSELF.

Spend your personal time to reflect and you will know the key to explore yourself.

What is your religion is not really important

I ‘ve got an email with title “your religion is not important”. In this email , a Brazilian teologist of freedom named Leonardo Boff had dialogue with the Dalai Lama. I like the wise answer from Dalai Lama.

With his interest, he asked Dalai Lama:

“What is the best religion?”

Dalai Lama answered,

“The best religion is the one that gets you closest to God. It is the one that makes you a better person.”

Such a wise answer, Boff asked again:

“What is it that makes me better?”

Dalai Lama responded:

“Whatever that makes you

More compassionate,

More sensible,

More detached,

More loving,

More humanitarian,

More responsible,

More ethical”

“The religion that would do that for you is the best religion”

“I am not interested, my friend, about your religion or if you are religious or not. What really is important to me is your behavior in front of your peers, family, work, community, and in front of the world.”

“Remember, the universe is the echo of our actions and our thoughts.”

“The law of action and reaction is not exclusively for physics. It is also of human relations. If I act with goodness, I will receive goodness. If I act with evil, I will get evil.”

“What our grandparents told us is the pure truth. You will always have what you desire for others. Being happy is not a matter of destiny. It is a matter of options.”

Finally, Dalai Lama said:

“Take care of your Thoughts because they become Words.

Take care of your words because they will become Actions.

Take care of your Actions because they will become Habits.

Take care of your Habits because they will form your Character.

Take care of your Character because it will form your Destiny and your destiny will be your Life

And

“There is no religion higher than the Truth”