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Sunday, February 19, 2012

Look inside myself


Reflection..:

Everyday I just feel that my emotions have changed, a little by a little..I'm not growing mature instead become more temperamental. I'm easily fussed, upset and less laughing..Gosh..
I think I always getting agitated since I was back at home, getting upset with all noises, annoying and impolite behavior of my sister (sometimes I just hope one day something can make her realize and change). Now I always ignore her hoping that one day her bad iritating words will eat her! I'm easily upset with hot weather too. This is ridiculous, I started doing frown face and grumbling with annoying things. As the result, these days when I saw my face in front of the mirror I feel old and ugly, an unhappy face in front of me..
:( dang!

Another thing is I just feel I can't communicate so good with my friends, hopefully this is just my feeling. It becomes indifferent or I'm just too "cold"?? whatever it is, I just miss old days.

I also always dreaming, some new targets what I wanna achieve but then I tell myself, "slowly and don't expect too much coz you will get hurt if you are not able to reach or make your dreams come true"...


Thursday, February 16, 2012

Who's fault?

Today I was the audience of Dad and sis argumentation. The content of what they argued was not so important. My sis felt that my father gave her too much advise and made her confused all the time about what program she has to take in the uni. On the other side, my father didn't feel that he forced her or made her confused, he just wanted to help her by giving as much as information about schools and he complained how my sis was impolite and was not grateful...

Well, I can't blame anyone..I can understand my sis feelings'...and I can understand my Dad attitude, he always comments of everything, how we supposed to do, how he did, our mistakes and so on. It sounds that he is the right one...
Now let's see from Dad's view... he wants to tell us or guide us to choose in better way, and we just felt annoyed by that..He feels we don't respect him, dont wanna listen to his comments and advise..he has good intention and care his kids, what's wrong?

In my view, we don't understand each person character, we show our mind and who we are without considering others feelings or opinion. Dad less praises of our achievement. He perceives we haven't enough clever to handle problems and take care ourselves. But I know Dad just wants the best and wants us learn more. However, as their children it just make us become dependent, not able to make decision coz we are afraid we dont take the best decision and we are influenced with all advise and comments. FYI, our brain can't cope with too much information too. But I really appreciate my Dad, he really gives good advise and support whenever I feel not confidence and anxious. He is the most logical person and stable mind so this what I should learn from him.

Maybe one day when I became parents I would do the same and knew their feelings..